iamwhoiam

the sun is up in the sky, just like a giant spotlight.

2010-06-04T23:18:00.003+08:00

Hey. Whats up?
Haha, since its the holidays, I've decided to post(:

stuff i've been doing since hols, week 1:
1) eat
2) sleep
3) cross training
4) watch zack and cody, suite life on deck!
5) homework :/
6) volleyballll(:
7) learning piano scores, paparazzi and the show, next up superman
8) yog stuff
9) going out. hehe
10) church.

apparently, this is my least busiest week compared to the other 3.
Sigh. This isn't a holiday anymore huh.
There's so much i want/need to do, yet so little time. ):

week 2 onwards:
7th -> training+ dentist+ sanika's birthday party
9th-11th -> combined track and field camp in school (: (: WHOO.
11th -> not sure if i should still go for the SP day camp after that. I'll be really exhausted.
12th-15th -> HONG KONG (SHOPPING) ! Can't wait for the factory outlets:D
16th -> training+ Cedar-Ortus outing (hope it'll be fun! haha)
17th-22nd -> MOUNT KINABALU CLIMB+ golf+ laguna. i don't wanna die. but the sunset and experience should be worth it(:

Yeah, my crazy schedule. These were my choices though, i can only pray that God'll bring me through safely, along with some enlightenment somewhere down the path? I'll leave it to Him[:

Okay, now today, which was kinda unexpectedly awesome..
Had training at east coast park in the morning,
i was NOT looking forward to running in the sizzling sun and i thought i would lose to all the sec1s and sec2s heh.
But hey, i managed to survive the gruelling 8km from macs to bedok jetty:D
i think my timing's about 45min?
including the toilet break, horrible horrible stomachache. pfft!
macs then home.
afternoon, friend suddenly smsed me, asking if i wanted to go watch a movie with her family.
So we went in the evening to the cathay to watch the prince of persia, not bad actually..
Quite humorous too, with the dude lamenting on tax and stuff. HAHA.

alright, see you around peeps(:

the little red flower (:

2010-05-24T21:05:00.003+08:00

the little red flower,
oh how it pulls its strings on that little child's heart!
lovingly, longingly, respectfully
does he stare at the minute paper flower cupped in his tiny palms.
Yet, the one he held so dear was not his,
for he didn't:
dress himself today,
he peed on his bed,
he didn't wash his hands
and he peed on purpose, in his pants!
truth is, that little boy has never gotten a flower before!
No matter how hard he tried,
everything just seemed too difficult for him,
an unattainable accomplishment.
Every little child in the orphanage had at least
one little red paper flower
except him.
Alas, he has gotten his rightfully earned flower,
its petals slightly crinkled and yellowed with age.
It was not his.
Guilt gnawed endlessly at his heart,
part of him yearned for it so badly,
another part urged him mercilessly to return it.
Tears streamed down his chubby face.
Oh how he wanted it, how he wanted it!
But, he realised he did not deserve that little red flower.
So, carefully, he daintily places it back where it belongs,
to its rightful and deserving owner, such an obedient girl.
She was the blue-eyed girl of the class,
ever ready to lead her peers,
always prepared to show them
how to change into
pajamas and back into the school uniform.
This was something the boy could not do.

With much enthusiasm and determination in his beating heart,
this little boy has decided that
he will get
his own
little
red
flower.

inspired from the cleaner i saw in the school canteen today(:

2010-05-14T22:29:00.006+08:00

A steaming mug of rich creamy black coffee,
what is it to us?
Nothing more than a few dollars worth of caffeine indulgence,
a daily perk i suppose.
But,
to that old man resting by the rickety table,
his styrofoam cup filled with thin, diluted black coffee
was all he could ask for.

As i watch him silently limp into the old coffee shop down the road again,
pity overcomes me
seeing how much he seemed to enjoy the day's break
of the cheap, less than a half a dollar, cup of kopi-o.
The usually exhausted, drooped shoulders
were now straight, with a slight skip in his step.
Dragging his right foot with wide left steps,
his frizzled unkempt hair bouncing along,
his delighted laughter echoes down the empty street.
Who knew how much one cup of coffee could transform a person!

Now, as he sits at his usual corner by the old radio
blaring chinese opera music loudly,
his eyes rest upon the yellowed styrofoam cup lovingly.
What he sees in it, i will never know,
however,
the tenderness he gives it as the cup is carefully lifted to his
peeling lips.
Astonishing.
As though holding his very first child,
he sips it delicately, afraid to spill even a drop of the liquid.
The steam wisps blur his vision,
perspiration starts to trickle down his shiny forehead.
He doesn't care.

Placing his finished cup of coffee onto the cold damp wooden table,
his shoulders once again slump,
his dreamy expression changes back to that unreadable gaze,
depthless glazed eyes.
Getting up from the stool with much lethargy,
the old man makes his way slowly out of the door, shoulders hunched.
He doesn't look back,
he never does.
And the old man's gone.
He's gone.

lord i give you my life

2010-04-04T18:15:00.002+08:00

Holy is the lamb who was slain,
holy holy is he.
Sing a new song to him who sits on,
Heaven's mercy seat.

Holy holy holy
is the Lord God Almighty,
who was and is and is to come.
With all creation I sing,
praise to the king of kings.
You are my everything,
and I will adore you.

so many things have happened thus far, but only one remains steadfast.

God.

ps. going to hwa chong tomorrow, for a week(:
haha, actually, i'm kinda excited!

journey on bus 132.

2010-03-16T20:33:00.002+08:00

A step up, followed by another.
The sudden blast of icy cold wind greets you,
sending a chill down your spine in a second, no wait, a nanosecond.
As you stretch out your hand towards the awaiting "money-eater",
the indifferent look on the bus captain's face causes you to stare
at your feet, whether nonchalantly or shyly.
However, your confidence dips to the lowest as you stride along the aisle,
eyes scanning from front to back, back to front, left to right
right to left but not one eye meets your glance.
You know you are not welcomed.
Meekly, now, you totter towards the back,
passing by the hateful passengers who sit on the outer seat
in order to decrease the chances of inconvenience others might bring.
You realise that you end up standing,
knuckles white from gripping the handle or pole,
yet too afraid to put your butt on a seat.

Soon, the bus slowly begins to fill up,
throng after throng and the bold take up most of the seats.
Halt.
An old lady shuffles up the bus with difficulty.
Her innocence shines through her wrinkled smile
as she looks for a seat but to no avail.
The atmosphere turns tense,
so silent that you could hear a pin drop.
Headphones begin blaring music, volumes are cranked up,
whispers and the flipping, crinkling of paper.
Only after a few stops,
does a student quietly give up his seat for the old lady,
but you could tell he was embarrassed from his reddened cheeks.

How pathetic.

"Move to the back please," the bus captain hoarsely shouts,
having done so nineteen to a dozen times already
yet the reaction is slow as feet shuffle, heels click, flip flops, flop.
Turning your head, you see the repeated pattern which you witness
everyday without change; passengers clumped at the front
while the rest are spaced out perfectly a few inches apart.
But don't we advocate change? For the better of the world?

Michael Jackson was right,
we need to heal the world.

so long, goodbye oac[:

2010-03-11T20:36:00.002+08:00

so long, goodbye (sum 41)
3A's OAC performance song(:

A time passes by, direction unknown
You've left us now but we're not alone
Before you know it your cups overflown
You measured no one that I've ever known

And it's quite alright
And goodbye for now
Just look up to the stars
And believe who you are
Cause it's quite alright
And so long, goodbye

We always knew that it'd come to this
It's times like these i forget what i miss
Matters of heart are hard to address
Especially when yours is full of emptiness

And it's quite alright
And goodbye for now
Just look up to the stars
And believe who you are
Cause it's quite alright
And so long, goodbye

OAC passed by in a whirlwind!
And although i was deprived of food, bathing time, sleep and a proper bed,
all the classes really bonded,
and I have to thank the OAIs and OALs for all the sweat and grit they put in(:

a math tomorrow, but mr tay doesn't scare me[:

2010-03-01T21:00:00.003+08:00

i will not be afraid.
of whatever the future beholds,
of wherever life takes me to,
of what God's purpose for me is.

i will not cringe and wave my white flag,
when i go through turmoil and problems,
when i'm in a tense race or situation,
when i have to suffer pain of my own partaking.

for he has been good,
and i've truly been blessed to be a blessing(:

bio was so much easier than i thought,
except for a fewwww careless mistakes haha!
and imma 3rd runner for 4x200m SPH relays this sat!
Shoot me down man(:

and although my knees are hurting alot, i'll give my best to you oh Lord.

left outside alone, sometimes its oh so true.

2010-02-23T20:39:00.003+08:00

All my life I’ve been waiting
For you to bring a fairy tale my way
Been living in a fantasy without meaning
It’s not okay I don’t feel safe

I don't feel safe..
Ohhh..

Left broken empty in despair
Wanna breath can’t find air
Thought you were sent from up above
But you and me never had love
So much more I have to say
Help me find a way

And I wonder if you know
How it really feels
To be left outside alone
When it’s cold out here
Well maybe you should know
Just how it feels
To be left outside alone
To be left outside alone

I tell ya..
All my life I’ve been waiting
For you to bring a fairytale my way
Been living in a fantasy without meaning
It’s not okay I don’t feel safe
I need to pray

Why do you play me like a game?
Always someone else to blame
Careless, helpless little man
Someday you might understand
There’s not much more to say
But I hope you find a way

Still I wonder if you know
How it really feels
To be left outside alone
When it’s cold out here
Well maybe you should know
Just how it feels
To be left outside alone
To be left outside alone

I tell ya..
All my life I’ve been waiting
For you to bring a fairytale my way
Been living in a fantasy without meaning
It’s not okay I don’t feel safe
I need to pray

And I wonder if you know
How it really feels
To be left outside alone
When it’s cold out here
Well maybe you should know
Just how it feels
To be left outside alone
To be left outside alone

All my life I’ve been waiting
For you to bring a fairytale my way
Been living in a fantasy without meaning
It’s not okay I don’t feel safe
I need to pray

exams exams exams.

have you ever truly, noticed, clouds?

2010-02-17T20:32:00.004+08:00

They travel the world.
Drifting, nomads with neither home nor herd.

Servants to the merciless wind,
they have no purpose, no direction,
their focus as wide as the vast azure sky.
These wanderers are constantly being,
pushed and pulled, at the whim of their ruthless foes.

Amongst the throngs of cotton white whisps,
the abominations of nature too,
have a variety of different personalities.

Like mankind,
there are the frontrunners of the crowd,
who are constantly at the top of their game,
never once conceding defeat without a fight;

Then, there are the followers,
who are always eagerly lapping behind the leaders, just,
people who go with the flow;

With all due respect, there are also the stragglers, or rather, the "emo" kids.
These quiet thinkers prefer to be alone to channel their thoughts,
and refuse to associate themselves with the herd
in order to maintain their unique status;

And lastly, there is also the group whom we favour the most:
they form shapes at their own expense, for the joy ,
of the screaming children and the artistic appreciation of the adults.
They are enlightened by being a blessing to others,
to see the people below smile at their painstakingly fashioned forms.
(and this is where the sermon on blessed to be a blessing comes in).

Clouds. Are,
temporary delights that add to the scenic value, which is
a part of the water cycle
and shelter that gives us shade from the blistering sun;

Clouds are giant candyflosses that obscures the sun from reaching us;
Clouds are humid suffocation before rain and thunder;
Clouds are dangerous mists which could wreck havoc on an airplane
clouds are nothing more than water vapour, they are non-living things, fools!

Alas, what are clouds, to you?

bitter. damn.

2010-02-15T23:34:00.003+08:00

Life sucks. Period.
No matter how hard I work, or how hard I try,
I'll never be able to do as well as I expect to.
My trip to KL had seemed so relaxed, where I could cast my worries aside.
But now, I've realised that I could only escape reality temporarily.

And now I have to come back, to where I started.

a tribute to helen kellar. she's awesome btw :]

2010-02-04T20:44:00.004+08:00

Her life was enveloped in an infinity of darkness,
a murderous dark labyrinth
incessantly weaving its treacherous tendrils through her mind.
Haunting, suffocating.

She could hear, she could smell;
She could taste, she could touch.
Yet,
she longed to escape from the roots of her awakening.

She yearned to see:
The luscious flora and fauna, that seemed to be brimming with
mother nature's whimsically brightly-pattterned creatures;
The snow-capped peaks of the Himalayas,
and the folding of wave over wave, in the Dead Sea.

She longed to scrutinise the immaculate detailing of a human's face, and
its explicitly crafted facial expressions:
Smiling, laughing, crying,
eating, sleeping, playing.

She yearned to be a part of this world,
to be able to see the earth in all its splendour.
She dreamt of fawning over her first rainbow;
of watching the ominent dark clouds let loose tiny water droplets. In turrents;
to admire with her very own eyes, the fascinating 8 wonders of the world;

She would give anything to regain her sight.
She would give everything to fulfill her dream.
She wanted to see,
She needed to see.
She had to see.

However, she knew that
she could not,
she would not,
and she will never see.

Life.

a poem i composed in the bus to church(:

2010-01-31T18:55:00.005+08:00

The Old Man Who Collected Cans

He walks.
A lone solitary figure, staggering. Staggering.
Dragging, dragging. Not just his feet, but his only faithful companion.
Both torn, tattered.
Weathered, beaten.

Heaving. Sniffling.
Muscles strain at the weight of the sack
as the two blend into one on the empty streets.

Ahha! A can!
Cheap metal clinks against tarmac,
its sheen and glossiness gone, just like the old man himself.

Eyes glisten. Claws curl.
He stumbles towards it, wild.
Hands hurriedly grab, fingers pressed against dented metal.
Fingernails, dirty and yellow,
scrape the cement, causing bits to fly in all directions.

Glee. Ecstactic! Warmth blooms through his cold heart.
Eyes flutter. Toothless smile revealed.
Wrinkled cheeks lifted. Jolt of energy.

He clutches his prize, before carefully placing it into the beckoning bag.
Shuffling, shuffling.

The search continues.

i'm going. i'm going. i'm gone.

2010-01-04T20:54:00.002+08:00

I guess I better stop blogging already.
School's started! And I need to do well. Oh dayum.
Don't really have much time to use the computer either:/
Thanks to SOMEONE who is oversensitive to everything I do.
Enjoy school guys and make the most of it!
Don't forget to continue to reach out to your friends too kays(:

love you guys:]

here i am

2010-01-02T15:44:00.002+08:00

i. am. back.
Haha I know you guys missed me lots,
and I did too(:

Korea was really awesome!
Though i missed out big on all the church stuffs like bigbox and watchnight and our blue stallion 9 reunion:/ So sorry guys if I didn't reply your sms-es! I didn't mean to pangseh anyone(:

Day1&2: skiied and ate ramen/udon for breakfast and dinner! AWESOMES. The skiing part was really funny cos I fell down quite alot on the ski slope, and kept banging into people in order to brake haha! But one of the good things was that I saw my elder bro in a different light. He was super nice to me while skiing and helped me alot(: Even though I kept screaming his name and embarrassing him! Thanks dude:] Camwhored with Ber and Maxine alot too!

Day3: Went to Mount Shiatsu in the morning. Man the view there is breathtaking and really inspiring! Walked alot; the wind was so strong it almost blew me down; but had lots of fun taking pictures and just admiring the scenery(: The streams were even frozen so we had lots of fun playing with the ice haha! Then we went to Waterpia resort. I AM PROUD TO SAY THAT, I
SWAM IN WINTER! The spas were great, although it was so cold to move from spa to spa:] Played at the waterslides and at the wavepool with the other young people, then ate Baskin Robbins before dinner. Bunked with Ya Xuan:D

Will update you guys in the next post, with pictures I hope(:

Love you guys!

joy to the world, i'm going korea!

2009-12-25T16:11:00.003+08:00

Heyyyyyy! Last post before going to Korea.
Will be back on the 2nd? But try not to miss me too much yeah:]

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!
And thanks so much guys for all your cards and presents and stuffs.
Especially to Ah Boy, THANKS FOR THE COOKIES THEY ARE DELICIOUS!

Ya Xuan, Ya Xuan. Please don't change church:/

Oh btw, Joshua Foo, if you see this, I might get cha something(: But don't get your hopes up too high hahaha!

someone give me a shiatsu.

2009-12-24T15:15:00.002+08:00

Its Christmas Eve(:
And tomorrow, it'll be Christmas! Plus Korea at night. Awesome:]
But this doesn't seem so exciting huh:/
I guess I'm already losing my holiday vibe, to the school blues.
Damn. This is sad.

Tuesdayyy: Had some special upper sec outing in the morning. I got up at 6.30am, super tired. We had lots of fun and all, but my legs suffered alot cos we walked so much! Not to mention the muscle pain from mon's training:/ Then lower sec outing in the afternoon! Although we didn't go to Sentosa, and was constantly being bullied by Bro Caocao and Joel Tay, I had lots of fun playing and laughing together:) It was really sweet:D

Wed: Trained with the sprinters yesterday for our last training. Did weights with Desiree and Jocelyn. Man, Jocelyn is the "fastest" person even when it comes to doing gym work! Haha(: I haven't been doing weights training for a LONG time so I was totally wiped out after all that; Followed up by lunges with weights and some jumping stuffs. The other cross people did a solid 8km and finished much earlier than we did:( I was also quite sad that I didn't get to join cross for our last training together this year:/ But if I want to train up for sprints, i need to train up my muscles so, oh wells.

Went to collect my totally cool and awesome and spectacular and nice black geek specs after that.
I think its nicer than my green pair so I'm officially changing to this one(: Yayness!
Then went out in the afternoon again to do some last minute shopping for the trip to Korea, and cut my hair.
I kinda regret cutting it so short:( Should have kept it a little longer argh. But its over now so I guess there's no point crying over spilt milk huh:)

Dayum. The muscle pain from weights training is really painful.
I like it[:

today's pain, for tomorrow's gain. its worth it.

2009-12-21T17:26:00.002+08:00

THE BLUEEE TRIBE!

there are 2 hot guys there. too bad you can't see them(:

Argh I'm really missing camp now:/
How I wish I could just expereince God once more, and linger in his mighty presence..
Camp was really one of those moments where I could dance, jump and shout in his presence, without a thought of the busy life I left behind for this..

Okay, moving on to camp comm!!
Everyone was really busy and tired cos we had so much to do!
Esp the leaders, so thank you guys for making this camp happen! Couldn't have done it without you:D
Although we had to deal with all that pressure and stress, and disappointment,
we were just so bonded. And had our laughs and fun together:)
I think serving the campers their breakfast and dinner were one of the most memorable times,
cos I got to meet so many people through just putting food on their plates!
OMGOSH I FED AT LEAST 125 PEOPLE EVERYDAYYY!
Haha no wonder my arms ache so much:]
I surprisingly enjoyed leading the campers in the games and such, even the part where I had to repeatedly shout the same sentence into the megaphone thing to direct the blurblur people. Everything seems so surreal now huh(:
I wanna be in camp comm again next time! :D

Training was at Serangoon stadium.
150m x 3 x 2
Although it might seem like we did very little, it was SUPER tiring.
I ran with Theodora:D And we were awesome ahhaha!
Suffered alot from lactic in my thighs and butt, and I felt like puking during the last 150m :(
But at least I tried my best, and gave my all!
In fact, I was so tired after that, that I couldn't even stand or walk properly, and kept having that puking feeling. Yeah I'm such a loser huh:)
Thanks everyone who cheered and supported me during training today, and for all those kind comments(: Especially Siti, for getting rid of the lactic for me.

you know you guys rock.

Purple dinosaur 0(:

2009-12-18T19:03:00.003+08:00

BLUE STALLION 9. I love my group yeah.

Camp IGnormous.
Was.
AWESOMES!

The sermons were really very impactful, and I've learnt alot from the Tabernacle experience and the evangelism workshop, besides being traumatised by Sis Esther's pro acting:] But I was definitely able to feel the reality of the way we evangelise to our friends, through her. So thanks(:
The games were kinda fun too. I wished I could play them:/ But oh wells! Just a little sad that we didn't get to play The Big Investigation:( It was still awesome though! Haha(:
Met this cute little P6 boy from Adam, Joshua! Haha he's really really really dayum cute! And also met this pro Maris Stella xcountry runner, but didn't get to talk to him much, still he seems cool.. [:

Shall post more about camp soon, especially about the camp comm and stuffs(:

THANKS FOR THE GREAT MEMORIES PURPLE DINOSAUR O!

you're in seventh heaven

2009-12-11T20:22:00.006+08:00

CAMP IGNORMOUS IS IN 2 DAYSSS!
OMGOSH I'M FLOATING ON CLOUD NINE :D
Can't wait to meet God at Tiara huh!?

Being in Camp Comm really is tiring much:/
Have been feeling very stressed out these past few weeks,
you know, planning, nitpicking, printing, cutting, EVERYTHING!
And when I'm stressed out really bad:

STRESS = HYPER-TALKATIVENESS/ BLURNESS

Example 1: Boarded bus 13, instead of bus 59,yester morning when I was going for training at Bedok! Haha I only realised a few stops later, that I was taking the bus to school, instead of to Bedok Reservoir:(

Example 2: Was super stressed out about camp and the Bedok time trial before training, and started chattering away crap to the people around me. I think I further increased their anxiety too ahhaha! Sorry guys!

Really feeling weary now.
Although camp comm seems very fun (it is kinda fun, btw),
there are times where everyone is in a frenzy because of the pressure for time.
ESPECIALLY SINCE WE NEED TO PREPARE FOR 48 GROUPS!
You guys better enjoy camp lots kays! :D
Cos the adult leaders have especially put in lots of effort for this!

In fact, I was so wired out, that, I felt giddy during training.
And fell. Ouch.
Bam. There goes my last training:(
However, I still have to thank Theodora for being so supportive of me, during this crazy period of time(: And jiayou jiayuou for training!

My mother is being such a bother right now. Sheesh.

where the weird people are

2009-12-09T13:11:00.006+08:00

SYLVIA'S IN THE FINALS OMGOSH YEAHS!
And even if she doesn't win this competition, she'll still become a popstar or something(:
So ALL THE WAY! YOU CAN DO IT!

I was so happy last night, when they announced that Sylvia was in the Finals,
that I screamed super loudly and started running around the house.
Yeah man adrenaline rush:]
Then, I dedicated today's 5km run to Sylvia!
And I actually managed to clock a good time of 24min:D
This. Is how awesome Sylvia Ratonel is(: Haha!

Slept over at Ya Xuan's house from Sunday till Tuesday.
Had to go back and forth a few times on Monday though cos I had some stuff on.
But it was still super fun(:
Except for the part where stupid Cha Am walked into the room without his shirt on:/ Eww.

And some stupid boys kept bothering us while we were at Macritchie.
I was just innocently cycling and calling out Ya Xuan's name to catch her attention, when,
One of them suddenly shouted, " WHAT?!"
Then the others broke into laughter and they started harrassing us.
He even pointed his finger at me and went, "Oi! You! Listen lah!"
Stupid idiots.

Took the Social Interview thing last week or so and this interesting question came out:
Question 11 of 30: Who is hotter, you or Tay Yong Hwee?
Haha(:

its goodbye for now, yi xin

2009-12-07T12:47:00.003+08:00

I'm semi-depressed, about:
1) My new buzz group for Upper Sec:/
2) Training today!
3) Holiday homework! (still have abit of chinese and science)!

Yeah yeah, I don't really like my new buzz.
Cos there are some people that I don't feel comfortable with. A.K.A Jonathan Lai.
AND THERE ARE NO SEC3 GIRLS AT ALL:(
Damn. This is sad.
I'd rather go to Jackie's buzz or something mans:/

However, during TAWG today and service yester,
God sort of showed me why he put me in that buzzgroup.
Bro Kai Xin told me that I'm one of the stronger female SPs,
thats why they expect me to help Jared to lead buzz discussions and stuffs.
Since God is giving me a chance to lead,as a Sec3,
I shall make good use of this opportunity and help my buzzies to grow(:

7 DAYS TO CAMP PEOPLE!
Can you feel the excitement? :]

you piss me off real bad.

2009-12-04T19:58:00.003+08:00

1) Oh gosh i want these yellow docmartens.

or the white pair i guess:]

2) These gypsy pants look pretty cool too huh.

YAY MR TAY IS GONNA PLAN FOR ME MY OWN TRAINING SCHEDULE!
Haha for Phase 2 of xcountry training, he's gonna give some people different training programmes, like Theodora and Hannah and me(:
Cos he wants us to train us up for Track&Field Nationals.
And my training programme will most probably be more geared towards 100m, 200m.
OH MANZ THIS IS SO AWESOME! I'M SO EXCITED:D

Anyways, I'm seriously getting really pissed off at my juniors.
They are such great bootlickers man, and talk way too much crap.
Especially feel like throttling them when they act cute. Or despo whatsoever.

Btw, Camp IGnormous is gonna be so dayumm..
NICE(:

if i walk, would you run

2009-12-02T15:11:00.002+08:00

Family Outing is so funny:]
Especially the "Dumb & Dumber" brothers Jaesuk and Daesung!
Haha Ye Jin is so much cooler than Hyori,
though Hyori's body gags are awesomez:D
And clumsy Chun Hee's so cute! Ahhahaha!

I don't like training at the new school:/
There are just too many running routes, and they all have slopes and stuff.
Especially hated today's 800m around Cedar Garden/old cementary.
Although we ran ONLY 4 times, I was panting alot and was super tired..
But at least I managed to finish all 4 sets! Giddyness and all:D

OH MANS I'M SO HYPED UP FOR CAMP RIGHT NOW!
YAY ITS GONNA BE SO AWESOME AND FUN!
HOPEFULLY I JOIN A BOOMZ GROUP!
ONE FAITH ONE HOPE ONE GOD ONE BODY ONE SPIRIT ONE FATHER OF ALL!

1) Nerds are HOT. (well, some are anyway)
2) I've got my new 15inch screen laptop already! :)
3) I still haven't played badminton yet..
4) I'm scared out of my wits of which buzz group I'll be joining in Upper Sec:/
5) I NEED TO SPEND MORE MONEYY! I've got to spend at least $180 come Jan[;
6) I'm missing Jasmine ):

twisted and torn. should i, should i not?

2009-11-30T23:35:00.006+08:00

random picture yeah(:

This was taken during Sports Day 09.
YES I HEART SPORTS DAY-S!
Cos its the only time that I can actually win my own medals in track events,
and see where I stand in terms of my current speed much:/
Shucks, I used to have such skinny legs!
But obviously not compared to Valerie's haha!

Okay. TRAINING.
300mx10. 2min rest. 66s pace for each round.
Argh. I could only manage an average of about 72s?
Except the last one where I really went all out and did 64s:D
But I'm happy, cos I tried my best, so YAY ME!

Anyways, I'm in a dilemma right now.
It didn't appear very significant to me at first,
but I've realised that maybe, just maybe,
I should just concentrate on sprints instead of crosscountry.
Do more speed work and power training on my own,
so that I'll be ready to fight for that 3rd spot in the 100m track&field Nats.
Mr Tay believes that I can do it! And more importantly, so do I:)
But I'm still not sure if I should put all my eggs in one basket,
many of my seniors believe that I can do well in xcountry too:/
Advice, anyone?

Sunday was really fun! Haha especially camp publicity:D
Thanks Jelaine and Joshua Foo for helping me out,
and sorry for leaving you guys at the back, make me feel so paiseh..
Sis Kim preached really well and I really felt impacted by her sermon,
especially since I always compare my talents to others.
Then, when Bro Zhi Cao was praying for me,
I realised that I have more than enough talents of my own.
I mean I can sing I can dance I can run I can wakeboard I can be artsy fartsy I can lead I can swim I can play the piano and the guitar I can do poetry I can get top50 in school I can do so many many things! Why worry about not being as good as others?

Then Sec2 farewell thing.
OH MAN I'M GONNA MISS ALL THE SEC1S AND THE LEADERS!
Thanks for being so awesome and caring:)

left behind. again

2009-11-27T14:13:00.009+08:00

GOODBYE JASMINE.
Its sad that you had to go,
and although I'll miss you lots,
I hope that you'll be strong and work hard,
and don't ever let anyone bring you down.
See you next year kays(:

Yesterday was truly a heartbreaker.
Besides sending off Jasmine at the airport,
and seeing her for the last time till next December,
I got left behind.
Again.

I'm not going into any details whatsoever,
but I just have to say this to you two:

I know you apologised repeatedly for leaving me behind,
and gave me hugs and made everything seem like it was alright again.
But you have to know that its NOT alright.
I was really hurt deep down, even until now.
You wretched my heart, kicked me in my guts.
Its the second time and I'm not standing for the third.
If this happens again,
You guys can kiss our friendship goodbye.
Cos my tears would be of more worth than this relationship that we have.

1) Guys who play the piano are uber cool:D

2) I'm STILL waiting for my new laptop

3) My brother got 222 for PSLE (its deja vu, considering the fact that I kept telling him he would get 222)

4) Sylvia's still rocking in Singapore Idol!

5) I'm sorry to say this but Tabby seems kindof lousy now compared to Sylvia and Sezairi

6) I wanna play badminton real bad:(

7) I need to run! and faster too:/

8) CAMP STUFF CAMP STUFF CAMP STUFF!

9) I might not get to see my baby cousin tomorrowD:

10) I miss Jasmine already:(

because Tanya said my hair was sexy.

2009-11-23T12:52:00.007+08:00

TO MY DEAREST ADRIENNE,
though you'll be going to IP next year, and I won't really see you anymore,
I still hope that you'll be able to do well in your new school, and that we'll remain close buds:)

Vania, Ing Yee, Adrienne

Okay, now moving on to Track Chalet, which was last week..
I promised you guys photos, so here they are!

Good 'ol Romaineee was mopping the floor all by herself. She didn't even want to let me help:/

Theodora, Ching Yee, Celynn, Hannah, Ing Yee, Sarah, Meaghan, Joanne!

Ahhaha! On Wednesday night, after the Sec4 farewell thing,
Tanya suddenly told me that.
MY HAIR LOOKED SEXY! Haha!
Oh man, so I only took this picture to see if it actually was sexy.
It was:D

Pictures with the Sec4s:) Sorry Shreya I didn't post ours cos I looked really weird..

Marhdiyyah!

Ying Ying!

Carolyn! (Ps I spelt your name correctly here! Haha)

Jedidah!

Syahirah!

Naomi!

Zahrah!

Jasmine!

Theresa!

Thank you guys for being so awesome! And I still hope that you guys like the notebooks and use them well! You'll be missed<3

Valeire Oh. My cute tiny little junior:)

Jocelyn's famous body gag. Argh I really want to watch the video again!

Theodora!

Steph, Ing Yee, Ariel, Clara!

Romaine's Eyore:)

Training today was day-yum tiring.
It just rained so the air was super dense.
I died. But I managed to finish it so YAY!

And thank you Mr Tay for telling me about the Swenson's card thing! I am forever in your debt!

the good things in life. don't last.

2009-11-20T13:20:00.002+08:00

I'm back from track chalet:D
It was quite awesome, though so tiring.
I slept from 5-10pm yesterday after coming back!
Pictures in next post soon:)

I miss the Sec4s already.. Argh.
Some of them even wrote me letters!
So thank youu! I really appreciate yourencouragement and belief in me!
I hope I won't let you guys down for Xcountry :/
Oh, and a big shout out to ZAHRAH and DAD!
Thanks for the delicious Nasi Lemak and cookies!
And for always fetching me home after training.
You guys are really like family to me:)

Training today. Sucked.
Stomachaches and weariness really make a lethal combination.

i need. power gel. LOTS of it.

2009-11-16T11:33:00.006+08:00

Jasmine, Ing Yee, Tanya, Caroline

My first race representing Cedar.

And yet, 2 of my first-ever teammates will be leaving soon):
Tomorrow's track chalet might very well be the last time I'll ever see some of the sec4s again..
Damn. This is sad.

Alrighty! Last post before I go to chalet tomorrow.
Church was, kinda fun! "HUH!?" ,
Was quite funny. Still can't believe that Sis Berber used to dance ballet! Haha(:
Oh, and Theresa came with Jedidah!
She's coming to Ignyte from now onwards. Period.
Thank you God for using Ignyte to impact Theresa:D

Untitled - Simple Plan

I open my eyes
I try to see but I’m blinded by the white light
I can’t remember how
I can’t remember why
I’m lying here tonight

And I can’t stand the pain
And I can’t make it go away
No I can’t stand the pain

How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
I’ve got no where to run
The night goes on
As I’m fading away
I’m sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

Everybody’s screaming
I try to make a sound but no one hears me
I’m slipping off the edge
I’m hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again

So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered
And I can’t explain what happened
And I can’t erase the things that I’ve done
No I can’t

How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
I’ve got no where to run
The night goes on
As I’m fading away
I’m sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

I made my mistakes
I’ve got no where to run
The night goes on
As I’m fading away
I’m sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

Imagine what the world will truly be like,
Without God's love;
Without His touch;
Without His strength.

Simple Plan is so awesome(:
Go listen to "Your Love is a Lie" and you'll see why.

the highhs, and the lows

2009-11-13T20:37:00.008+08:00

Channing Tatum is kinda hot, isn't he?

Today was really.. Hilly?
Haha so many things happened, or rather,
so many "important things" happened!

Training was at Macritchie today morning, 8am.
Argh, so early, and I was damn stressed that I wouldn't be able to run well:(
Cos I was still kinda coughing and had lots of phlegm,
but I was feeling kinda guilty for not going on Wednesday so I went anyway.

I didn't even run in the end:(

I was sort of looking forward to running the 5km,
you know just RUN and at least maitain my stamina or something.
Then, while we were stretching, Mr Goh asked Cheryl if anyone was sick and could look after the bags cos Mr Tay wasn't here.

She pointed at me D:

Well, at least I did Cedar Xcountry a service by volunteering myself!
And I managed to do some core excercises while waiting anyway.
AND, I didn't get dirty! HAHA.

Next...

I GOT INTO TRIPLE SCIENCE WHOOOOOOO!

Congrats to everyone else too, including Rachel Goh!
I'm so so so ecstatic that God has blessed me with such awesome results!
Hopefully I'll work really hard and do really well next year(:
Thank youu everyone for believing in me. I <3 you peopleeeeeeeeeee

here again to save the day..

2009-11-11T20:15:00.002+08:00

Hello hello!
I've finally started blogging again after, what, 5720957693 years?
The dinosours must have already died a few times over, haha!
But I'll try to post more often now, since its the holidays.

Speaking of my last "relaxing" holiday before I move on to Sec3,
I'm packed to the brim with XCountry training and other activities, like,

Camp IGnormous!

Yes yes, awesome huh?
I'm so happy that God has given me the chance to be in the camp comm this year.
Hopefully I'll get another opportunity next time.
So GO FOR CAMP IGNORMOUS PEOPLE!
Its gonna be so so very fun, especially the games(:

Slyvia rocks my socks, and it ain't easy to do so.